THE INNOCENCE OF A MOTHER
The Traci Jackson Story
In Her Own Words
I’ve
known my husband since fourth grade. We
married in 1995 and produced two beautiful children, Jacob (7) and Samantha
(4). I can’t pinpoint the exact time our
marriage started o fall apart, but slowly, as a few years after the birth of
Sami, we began to drift away from each other – living like roommates, not
lovers. I tried hard to capture Paul’s
attention. I lost weight, dressed sexy,
made advances but all I got was, “I’ve worked my ass off…I love you honey…I’m
so tired…sex is not important to me…”
Well it was important to me. Late
one evening I realized that he didn’t want sex from me. He was ordering porno from DirecTV every week
while I slept and “taking care of himself.”
How do you think it made me feel to know I couldn’t entice or turn on my
own husband?
Viagra
pills would always be brought home from work.
Evidently, they weren’t intended to be used with me. I couldn’t even turn my own husband on but
slutty women on TV could. I started
checking the DirecTV bill and never told him I was aware of his secret; our
bill was over $100.00 a month.
Soon
I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer – which further distances Paul from any
chances of intimacy with me. I had my
ovaries, fallopian tubes and uterus removed.
I was devastated. Eight weeks
after surgery, he still wouldn’t approach me intimately. I did find comfort in a new male friend, who
made me feel desirable. Foolishly and
regretfully I had an affair. I came to
find out that Paul was having me followed and having my cell phone bugged with
a recording device. I would not have put
it past him to have the doctor remove both of my ovaries when Cancer was only
in one. Paul is a family physician. He was angry, hurt and full of vengeance. I
was seeing a marriage counselor and we had an appointment to start going
together when I was arrested.
In
fact, the day that he told (Thursday) that is wife may have poisoned him, what
does he do? He leaves
The
woman who told him this lie had been receiving Vicodin from me and I no longer
would give it to her. Within twenty-four
hours she called Paul and tells him of my affair) of which she knew about for
the last five months) and adds a lie. My
venting to her and her to me was turned into headline news! She was in a miserable marriage – going though
a divorce. I was spilling out my heart
and feelings to her. Yes, I did admit to
saying not so nice things to her regarding Paul, but that was the extent –
venting – never acting on anything.
I
had nothing to hide from the detectives – I admitted and even showed them my purchase
of D-Con. We live on a wooded lot with
moles, mice, raccoons, etc. Our
housekeeper testified she told me to pick it up at the hardware store and
utilized the contents outside. Paul lied
under oath denying that we had any rodents.
He knew mice invaded the BBQ grill which is why he gave it away and got
a new one from a friend. He even saw the
children feed the mice cheese through the grill.
I
was convicted on hearsay. I do not
belong in prison. Adultery may be
immoral but it is not against the law.
That is my guilt, seeking companionship from another man. I sit and wait for an appeal and cry every
day. I miss my children more than
life. This is an injustice. Now my soon to be ex-husband and the state
want to take my kids away from me permanently.
PLEASE HELP.
Traci
Jackson #519903
Robert
Scott Correctional Facility
47500
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